s e dae gets cl0ser..!

as the dae 0f my c0urt hearin gets cl0ser..i gt m0re anxi0us..i started panickin lk mad..desperately tryin 2 find ani p0ssible meth0d jus 2 get the m0ney 2 pay my fine..i even nearly br0ke my baby's truzt by tryin 2 get ah0ld 0f the m0ney..i'm really deeply s0rie babe..i was gettin xtremely desperate..i jus d0wana leave u all al0ne..i knw tt i m wr0n..i'm glad tt i didnt went wid tt plan til the end..i regret my acti0ns very much..n i've learnt my less0n..it pisses mi 0f n left mi feelin vulnerable..the t0t 0f nt bein able 2 see u..msg wid u..t0k 2 u..n even nt bein able 2 mit u..kills mi bit by bit..it gt mi really desperate jus 2 av0id feelin all tt..i may l0ok calm..bt as the dae ticks by..in my heart n mind..all i cld ever tink 0f is "wad wil the c0nclusi0n 0f my hearin b..?" n u..hw cld i ever live wid myself 4 leavin ur side..its drivin mi insane..bt i jus d0wan u 2 see mi brkin apart..n nw..the dae hab finally arrived..n i'm t0tally freaked 0ut..