feelin unwanted..??

u knw hw wen u're b0th bz n dun really hab time 2 mit each 0ther..well..tts 1 0f the reas0ns y i dun really mind wen i'm nt able 2 mit him..since he's bz jugglin wid w0rk n frenz..bt i dun0 y..bt i kinda feel neglected..i undrstnd tt evri1 nids their space..bt i really feel unwanted 4 sum reas0n..i even feel tt sumtimes i'm a "jus f0r display" d0ll..its weird rite..?? well..i kinda hab my reas0ns 4 feelin tis wae 0f cuz..i'm nt sure if i'm bein unreas0nable by feelin tis wae..its freakin c0nfusin..n i've been p0nderin abt it 4 quite sum time..mi n him..we rarely mit..especially cuz he's bz n hab 0ther pri0rities..i'm nt the kinda thick-headed ger wh0 tinks tt her b0yfie hafta spend all his time wid her..0f tt i'm sure..bt its jus tt..he jus really dun gib a damn abt mi..he rarely msges..n we rarely mit..in n0rmal circumstances, ppl wil sae tt he's tw0-timin 0r he jus gt sick n tired 0f mi alrdy..bt izit p0ssible?? i hab t0tal faith n trust in him..i dun believe tt he wil cheat 0n mi..he rarely msges..bt wen he d0es, he'll msg mi halfwae n den the c0nversati0n gt l0zt..cuz he suddenly didnt reply..he ask mi 2 msg..bt wen i did msg, he nv replied..i tried 2 make plans wid him..bt all e plans tt i came up wid falls thru..cuz its either he's gt w0rk [i dun blame him 4 tt] 0r he 4gt all abt it n made plans wid his frenz instead..i cant sae anitin abt it..cuz he can b rather 4getful..bt it kinda gibs mi the feelin tt i really dun matter much 2 him..n its rather painful 2 tink 0f it tt wae..i mit up wid him atleaz 0nce a wk bt..i didnt mit him tis entire wk..i dun seem 2 get a sae in hw we mit..really..wen he feels lk it, he'll jus suddenly msg 0r call mi up n tel mi 2 mit..i wish i can sae n0..bt its s0o rare 2 b able 2 mit up wid him tt i jus dr0p wadever i'm d0in 0r quickly get 0ut 0f bed jus 2 mit him..tinkin abt it..sumtimes i really feel lk cryin..many times actually..i did cry 0nce..n eventh0ugh i d0 lub him, i find myself wishin tt i m his fren rather den his gerfy..cuz he really care n take his frenz m0re seri0usly den mi..i really hate tis feelin 0f bein unwanted al0t..its as if he placed a wall btwn us..lk i dun bel0ng in his life..0r rather..m0re lk i was nv apart 0f it 2 begin wid..n n0 matter wad i d0..i can nv brk dwn the wall, bel0ng in his life 0r bcum apart 0f it..n tt really sux..its lk i'm a really uselez n pathetic gerfy..wen evri1 keeps tellin mi tt i'm actually a really great 1..i'm s0o damn c0nfused nw..its nt a nice feelin 2 start 0f wid..if i stil hab al0tta tearz..i tink tt i wld hab cried a river til its full..cuz i'm a crybaby..bt i cant..been cryin n wastin t0o much tearz 0n guys..haiz..i dun get it..i really really really dun get it..