guys r nth bt trouble..

haiz..guys really r nth bt trouble arent they..havin guys ard mi gibs mi constant headaches..xcept 4 sum of them ah..cuz i've gt great guy frenz too..they're really e bez ah..bt those tt keeps givin mi probs r e 1s who sae tt they LOVE mi..bt do they really undrstnd wad love means in e 1st plc?? i knw tt i'm nt sum kinda pro in RS..bt i jus wan sum1 2 truly lub n undrstnds mi..is tt sumtin diff 2 ask 4?? i dun nid their money, sex or wadsoever..i jus wan sumtin s simple s tt..of cuz la..i wan HIM 2 b faithful..which ger in tis planet or even universe wana share a bf?! if there is a person lk tt, tt person is REALLY STUPID!! cuz lub is SElFISH..its sumtin tt cant b shared..i've gt a bf la..bt too bad he's stuck in his past RS..his x-gf is alrdy engaged 2 another guy ah..bt unfortunately 4 mi, though she's engaged, she's tryin 2 steal my bf..haiz..its heart-brkin la..cuz i lub my bf..bt i cant seem 2 b able 2 do anitin..cuz he's stil deeply in lub wid her..n i'm jus sum new ger..its a pain ah..bt i cant hold on 2 sum1 tt doesnt lub mi rite?? soo..i've dcided 2 let go la..bt slowly by slowly..aft all..i really lub him alot..though he's a matrep n a player..i jus cant help fallin 4 e bad guys..zurwiyadi bin zanuri..iki nastrah really lub u alot u knw..wish tt u'll cum baq 2 mi whole-heartedly 1dae..bt its all fat hope ba..cuz i knw him too well..even if he doesnt notice it..i'm glad 2 hab known him..though there r more pain n tears in tis RS, there were times of beautiful memories too..n i'll treasure it wid mi..no matter where i'll b..i jus wish u happinez n hope tt u'll change..if u ever wana cum baq 2 mi, i'll stil b there 4 u..bt it wun b e same animore la..cuz u wana leave mi 4 sum other ger ma..

can it get ani worse??

life seems 2 get harder dae by dae..i gt whacked pretty badly by my stepdad laz fri..or was it thurs?? niwaez..he gave mi 3mths 2 find a proper job n get a plc 2 live in..guess tt means he's kickin mi out..haiz..i'm kinda disappointed in my mum ah..actually..i'm v disappointed in her ah..she doesnt seem 2 care abt mi at all..n i'm her onli daughter..its v heartbrkin u knw..she didnt even look 4 mi..wads e whole pt of mi usin a hp if she doesnt even knw hw 2 cntct mi at all?? even my elder bro is disappointed n mad at her..i knew tt my mum's character is lk tis all along..bt i jus dowana believe it..aft all, she IS my mum rite?? i tot tt she wld b by my side no matter wad happens..its nt as if i'm an adopted child..i'm her real flesh n blood daughter tt she carried 4 9mths..i jus dun get it y she chose 2 abandon mi instead..